EVER WONDER

EVER WONDER WHAT ANYTHING IS ABOUT? PURPOSE? WHAT MAKES THINGS IMPORTANT TO U ANYMORE? I DREAM OF A DAY THAT I CAN JUST WAKE UP AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY OR GIVE A SHIT OF WHAT THE DAY HOLDS, I WANT TO GO TO BED ONE NIGHT WITHOUT A MILLION THINGS GOING THROUGH MY MIND OF WHAT 2MORROW HOLDS. I WANT TO JUST GO TO BED WITHOUT TAKING MEDICATION OR EVEN MAKE IT THROUGH A DAY WITHOUT HAVING TO TAKE ONE PILL. MY MIND IS ALWAYS WONDERIN WHAT IS TO COME. I ALWAYS WONDER ABOUT THE FUTURE AND NOT LIVE IN THE PRESENT. I NEED TO JUST STOP WONDERING, WORRY, CARING,THINKING,FORGIVING,FORGETING (THAT I CAN NEVER DO) WHY DO I EVER WONDER WHY DO I EVEN CARE? I ALWAYS WONDER ABOUT ALL THE PEOPLE THAT HAVE BEEN IN MY LIFE WEATHER PAST OR PRESENT THEIR IN MY MIND ONE WAY OR ANOTHER, EVEN IF I WANT TO HATE THEM I CAN'T. PEOPLE I FEEL I DON'T WANT TO TALK 2 BUT YET I LOOK ON MY PHONE TO SEE IF THEY CALLED? I KNOW I ALWAYS WONDER ABOUT THEM AND WORRY ABOUT THEM! BUT DO U EVER WONDER ABOUT ME?