Peace Be With Me

Just yesterday I went to the grave of my ex-girlfriend who passed away not too long ago. It was the first time I had ever been there.... however, I knew exactly where to go and where the grave was. When I got there, hopping across her body.... were two frogs (her favorite animals.) And not too far from the grave was a turtle (one of my favorite animals.) So I put them together on top of her body and watched them. I had my ipod turned all the way up and the song When I Get Where I'm Going by Brad Paisley and Dolly Parton came on. Immediately I started crying and all the memories came flooding back. Her hiring me for my job, her telling me that she loves me, the nights i spent awake taking care of her, everything. I bawled my eyes out for half an hour just thinking of the past. When I finally wiped the tears from my eyes I saw her standing by the tree next to her grave. She had a message for me: That she loves me and will always be there for me. That even though she is not physically here, does not mean that she doesn't see things. So I decided from there that the best thing for me to do was lay on her grave and feel the sensations. I felt her hug me as I lay there and I was amazed at the peace I felt when I felt the hug. I totally feel complete now. Like I am me again, whole and unshattered, slowly picking up the pieces and putting it all back together.