Kodi Jimenez's Blog – May 2009 Archive (6)

Fuzzy and intangible

Never should I feel like this

Lost in my own thoughts

Floating in oblivion

Transfer my pain

To another part of myself

Only when that pain subsides

Shall I feel lucid once again

Isolated for eternity

But it is by choice

It lessens my anxiety

But it builds back again

Too many times I've lost myself

Hoping for a rescue

I turn the tables

Become a hero

And fail in my endeavor

Listless once… Continue

Lay me down

Feed me temptation

Suppress my solidarity

Tear down my walls

Make me yours forever

Own me

Hold me

Slip into nothingness with me

Show me my future

Reality falls away

Seeing only your eyes

Control me

Command me

Make me obey

Manipulate me

Forever in your arms

I am yours



Writing this one was not difficult. Many times I have writer's block and can't seem to get the thoughts in my head on paper.… Continue

Let me be

Let me die

Let me bleed

Let me cry



Put my pain away

Tuck it into bed

Cozy in myself

Once again the slumbering Dead



Soul is searching

Finding

Waiting

To be touched like no other



Fill me with your dreams so that I may uncover

The secrets of your mind

Of your soul

Of your own prison you call life



Why not show me above all else

To me you are my heart

My life

My one true… Continue

Just yesterday I went to the grave of my ex-girlfriend who passed away not too long ago. It was the first time I had ever been there.... however, I knew exactly where to go and where the grave was. When I got there, hopping across her body.... were two frogs (her favorite animals.) And not too far from the grave was a turtle (one of my favorite animals.) So I put them together on top of her body and watched them. I had my ipod turned all the way up and the song When I Get Where I'm Going by… Continue

Burning bright

Such a light

For her, I fight

For love, I might



I lived my life in the dark

Many a night pass

Lying in the coldness of my mind

Dreaming of love such as hers



I have it now

It's all mine

This bright love of mine

She is beauty incarnate



Lying there in my bed

Crying myself to sleep

No longer do I dream

Of a love such as hers



She shows me love

She shows me hope

Swooping… Continue

I just heard some news today and it got me thinking. Of all the horrible things that could happen to me I found out that one of my great friends has cancer. Thyroid cancer too. And even though it was not anybody I was related to, it still got me thinking about how it does run in my family. I have to constantly think that all will be well and that everything happens for a reason. However, sometimes this theory is harder to take to heart when it comes to yourself. So many times I have had dreams… Continue